Archives for category: Diary of a Mad dru

It is a long and eventful afternoon and I’m going out of my mind.  My counselor agrees we should change to mecication management only but now my whole care needs to be transferred back to my HMO, which one year ago told me they wouldn’t see me and made arrangements for me to go back to this facility.

I’m crying and feeling hung out to dry again.  I know I’m less volitile now a year later but I’m afraid.  I hate where I’m at but am terrified of going backwards.

I want a Marguirta and some chips and to just forget this afternoon.

I hate everything and feel no happiness.  What that mean dru, what that mean?

I hear gossip in the buzz of the flies on the window screen.  Music in the white noise of the fan from the A/C.  Crying in the water running from the faucet.  A hip hop beat in the drumming of my ears.  catwithearphones

I can already feel it!

Panic is setting in because the days are getting shorter

(hotter but shorter)

I can’t stand change, I can’t stand heat,

I CAN’T STAND IT!!!

CatWantsOut~~dru~~

DirtyClothes

Where do all those clothes go?  The ones you just had on that pile over there?  The socks that were a pair when put in the wash and a single RSVP when they come out of the dryer?  That dress you only wore once and you know you hung up last week, right there at the place between those two others?

dirtyClothes2

Well I know where they go.  I had a dream last night and it came to me like things do in a dream.

While we sleep the clothes trolls sneak in through our dreams and mine our bedrooms and laundry rooms for the exact jewel like pieces that will complete their ensembles.

BLAME IT ON THE DIRTY CLOTHES TROLLS

~~dru~~

I sat at a pool’s edge this evening, basked in the lovely setting sun, and swished my legs.  You know what that Vitamin D and all that exercise got me?

I was up til 3 am and my regular pee schedule is 2am, 4am, and 6am.

I missed my 1st stop and probably won’t wake up for my 2nd and 3rd!

CatSwimming2

~~dru~~

 

The true substance of me

could be contained in one small volume,

the book of my whole life

in a column titled;

assets not debits

~~dru~~

CatReading

posted for a daily prompt of volume

JUST BECAUSE I SHOULDN’T

DOESN’T MEAN I WILL COMPLY

I’M SORRY THAT I’M FOOLISH

I HATE TO MAKE YOU CRY

BUT JUST BECAUSE I KEEP IT UP

DOESN’T MAKE ME A SINNER OR SUCH

SO KEEP YOUR OPINIONS TO YOURSELF

I THANK YOU VERY MUCH

~~dru~~

The gory details come and gone, sensationalism at some relief.

The bloody scene was taken down.

Hurting beyond belief.

What made the mad man with the knife, slice throats at ten times four?

He got away in all that blood,

Will he come back for more?

morpheusshade

~~dru~~

inspiration:  https://slashermonster.com/2017/05/25/recruiting-all-monsters-and-slashers/

 

 

 

CatCrying

“I wake up to resolve. But I fall asleep by dissolving.”

 

Source: https://aopinionatedman.com/2017/05/24/domain/comment-page-1/#comment-448445

MY LEVEL OF WEIRDNESS IS ABOVE THE NATIONAL AVERAGE, BUT I’M COMFORTABLE WITH THAT! ~~dru~~